╚►Avoiding Love➸♥ (｡◕‿◕｡)

I fought this feeling 

i lost
i ignored it
it came back
i try to forget
i remember
i run from it
it catches up
i hide
it finds me
i refuse to listen
it shouts louder
i build up a wall
it knocks the wall down
my heart can deny it
but my face shows the truth
now you will know that...

i love you 

 

To love is to suffer. 

To avoid suffering, 

one must not love. 

But then, one suffers from not loving. 

Therefore, to love is to suffer; 

not to love is to suffer; 

to suffer is to suffer. 

To be happy is to love. 

To be happy, then, 

is to suffer, 

but suffering makes one unhappy. 

Therefore, to be happy, 

one must love or 

love to suffer or 

suffer from too much happiness.

p/s:

I shouldn’t care or wonder how you are, 

but I can’t hide this hurt inside my broken heart. 
I’m fighting back emotions that I’ve never fought before because I’m not supposed to love you anymore.

●┼●•» Love-Hurts «•●┼●

Once i was someone,
So in love that i followed,
A man who ripped out my heart,
Leaving my jaded and hollowed.

I have made new friends,
But they don’t fill the void,
Their words of comfort only leave me annoyed.

Such terrible deeds he has visited my way,
But they all seem trivial at the close of The day.

My heart has been stabbed so much it no Longer bleeds,
A heart of its own it knows what it needs.

An end to the pain, 
Though there's not one in sight,
Tormented again and alone every night. 

And at last here i am,
Back at the start,
Everything is the same,
But my poison filled heart.

For all the times,
You weren't by my side,
For all the times,
You just watched me cry.

Everything you put me through,
Hurts me so bad now,
And the pain won’t fade away,
So now I have to live with it every day.

I can’t believe you would do this,
After you told me you loved me,
And I thought it was true,
But I guess you lied.

Now I'm here alone,
Without you by my side,
No one for me to talk to,
About what I'm going through

As I close my eyes, I try to let the past go.

Every time, more stuff starts to show.

It reminds me of more things, I don’t want to know.

When you try to figure out, what parts are true.

 Just give up, because the rest will disappoint you.

You keep on trying, and get hurt as you do.

The thoughts in my head, as I see my mistakes.

I feel all the pain, as I cause all the aches.

All I can see, is that I’m a disgrace.

I look at the ones, whose lives I cause pain.

I feel that I’m the mistake, the one who is to blame.

I shouldn’t live my life, with all of this shame.

My perspective of life, has changed since then.

Can this be fixed, or at least make it end?

With my luck, it will happen again and again.

This is the place, that many call hell.

I live it each day, some can’t even tell.

I show no emotions, on how far I fell.

Just say no to all, because you are the one.

You know the cause,

it’s from everything you’ve done.

Just put it to an end, to help everyone.

♥ Being In Love ♥

The things I have never said

are more than just i love you

You are the reason I live

When you breath in the air

You are the one for me

The sun rises and sets for you

When you say my name

My heart lost her tune

You tell me you love me

You say I miss you

You are the one and

these are the things you never heard

because you have gone away from me

but I still love you with the things i have never said.

I want to be needed,

but i hate to deal people.

I want to be known,

but I always hide.

I act as if i’m happy,

but i feel hollow inside.

I seek for affection,

but left it when found it.

I said I love him,

but i’m sure this won’t last.

Love is God’s gift,

But I believe it can be taken back.

That’s what masks are for.

Whispering wind just passed me by,

it sang me a storm that made me cry,

is it only my love and me left alone,

with nothing ahead I have to see,

eyes seem to have turned into stone.

Why is it that I am feeling this way,

with you still here by me,

But is it because you seem too far away.

What has happened to all that love we shared,

Sometime you make me feel its still there,

and that you still do care,

for just the next moment

Why so you seem empty and hurt inside,

When we feel that we are meant to be,

Or is there something now you seem to hide.

Where is the magic that we felt in the air around,

I feel it draining away even when you are around.

Please tell me the wind got it all wrong,

that our love is still so strong,

I will be alive seeing you happy

that is all I ever want.

I know that thousands of words

are not enough to tell you

my heartily feelings, my emotions,

my passion towards you,

So I want you to see my

feelings, my emotions and

my passion in my eyes,

and through it in my heart.

I wish you could read my face

and come to know about

what I want to say…

Love is like a stream of energy

whoever falls in love, feels

that energy flows through out

the body and life changes into a fairy tale

it seems like we get the power,

passion, happiness, eternity

and wealth of all world.

The greatest refreshment

after a hectic and boring life

is to fall in love with someone.

You feel like you are going

through the process of rebirth

and a new life starts for you.

So experience the process

of rebirth and make yourself

madly fall in love with someone.

★ Lies ★

Fake smiles,
Fake hugs,
All sugar coated lies,

I can't hurt you,
But, how can I go through?

You look me in the eyes,
Tell me you ARE telling the truth,
But, how can I still tell it's all lies?

You're so hypocritical,
Always finding my flaws,
Telling me my dreams are all a lie,
Putting me down,
Cutting me down,
When all I want is to fly.

How can I call you a friend?
How can I go on?
How can I?
When everything feels so wrong?

Lies covered on lies,
You tell me you're just helping me,
But, how can I touch the sky,
If you won't let me be?

I'm torn.
Like a broken, bleeding heart,
Still alive, still beating,
But missing that one important part.

I can't take much more.

Not with my heart so broken,

Broken beyond repair.

Not when my mind is so sore.

So please,
I'm begging you,
Can you leave me?
Just let me be?
I don't want you here,
Holding me down,
Not letting me fly,
Fly out of this,
This frozen land...
Let me fly into the sky...
Where I can breathe...
And where I know,

It Isn't All A Lie.!!!!

·٠•Regrets??•٠·

If only...i could get one more chance to change the things...
i would have gone to the past...and never had fought with him on such stupid topics...
though the mistake wasn't completely mine..
but i can focus on one thing.,..
i always believed on letting on...
and he tried to hold on...

but now he’s gone...
and i could understand what it means to be alone...
and i don’t want to be alone...
i wish he could give me one more chance...
just to wake myself up..
and i promise...
this time...i ll try my best....to make this work out...
because...i really want to...
i know...what it means by....being ALONE>...:'(

~♥♥~

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♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

It Pains Inside But I Never Said A Word,
.
I Always Said I Love You But You Never Heard,
.
Louder Than Thunder Was Scream, When I Cried,
.
Still You Went Away No Matter How Hard I Tried..!

.

and now you already had a new lover.. that's what i know from your friend..

i might not know the truth..

but somehow i wish you good luck in your future with your loves one!

no matter how hard it is! 

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥!

i will still support you as your friends.

I will wait till the day that you’re regrets! >_< lols* 

♥-changing herself-♥

well...

things goes on and on..

as i've been so active in the Interact Club     

and ignore my parents & sister advice..

till i get bad results and get scolded..

that's how bad i am ( the past )

but since that day..

everything change..

i could even scare for my own future..

my dad keep advice me..

and i got the support from my family..

that's why i gotta change myself today..

i promise them to get a better result in my next exam!

and i hope that i would not involve in any relationship things with boys! >_<

myself today is gotta change my past

and have my own priority, future, love for family 

and of course i will put GOD first.. ♥♥

Originally posted by

Peggy ペギー

★Learn To Let Go★

I wrote this poem when I was going through a hard time dealing with a break-up. 
I was watching TV, and I heard the words "You've gotta learn to just let go". 
Those words really stuck with me. So I grabbed my notebook and started writing. 
I hope this poem helps some of you get through those hard break-ups.

We had a lot of fun
When we were together
I'll never forget
I'll always remember

The laughs that we shared
The dreams that we had
But those dreams changed
And they left me sad

I know you've moved on
And found someone new
But I have to admit
I still wish for you

This isn't healthy for me
I really need to stop
When I think about our past
My heart wants to pop

So as I say my last goodbye
I want you to know
That I'm trying my best
To learn to just let go

You told me you loved me and that you cared.
You promised sweet kisses and to always be here.
You were once so good and kind, gentle and so very sweet.
When just thinking of you my knees grew weak.

When you're hands were in mine, chills ran up my spine.
Now my world is upside down
All the silence is now sound.
Fantasies are nightmares, dreams are like hell

You don't hold my hand and I wonder who is it I am sharing my man with.
Your lies are effecting me, stressing me, making a mess of me.
I can't even vibe with you, especially
knowing you had her in your arms.

The same ones that used to protect my worries and stop my fears.
The hands that wiped away my tears.
The lips that once gave sweet kisses and spoke soothing reassuring words
The once welcoming sincere smell of you shirt now makes me sick to my stomach.

Sick to the pit.
I know I must face the truth.
I hate this s**t. I want to hate you but all that will do is cause pain to me.
Only God knows how this is effecting you.

And silly me still in love.
Me. You. We. Her. You. Me. Pain. Sorrow. Resentment. You

♪♪♫•¨• Teddy Bears! ¸¸.•¨•♫♪

Cute?? 

That's for sure.!!! 

it's my 1st teddy i got from my mom! 

Thanks mummy..!! 

How bout this HUGE BEARS??

It's was one of my favorite!

My mum and grandma went to Australia 

and bought it back for me..!!

really love it..!

thanks grandma and mummy!

 This dogs is from my sister..!

hahha.. just because she know that 

i love dogs that's why

she purposely buy it for my birthday present.!!

yipee~♥

That's all for today that i could upload! 

hahax!! ♥ ♥

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